Seizing a Lifetime, One Day at a Time

Warning: This blog is a vent. I need to get some thoughts out but don't really have anywhere else to put them. I can already tell it's going to be negative but hopefully I'll be able to see the positive once I'm done venting. Here goes... Life is so frustrating!! I'm just really sick of so many things going wrong. I'm trying so hard to be patient and charitable but sometimes I wonder if life just keeps throwing me challenges just to make me break. It's like me and life are playing bloody knuckles and I keep getting hit because I'm afraid to hit life back. I don't want to be negative or rude or anything like that, but sometimes it seems like the trials are going to keep piling up until I finally break and be the negative person I don't want to be! I'm trying so hard to keep a positive attitude, but I can't just keep smiling when everything keeps falling apart. It's unbearable. You might be wondering what could be so bad and I'll ad...

It's been a little while since I last had anything fun to say. Sad to say, it will still be a while until I come up with something "fun" but I figured I should write something on here before I start losing all my dedicated readers. :) Actually, I'm sick (possibly Swine Flu) and have nothing better to do on this beautiful Sunday afternoon where I'm stuck inside and self-quarantined in my own room. I need to apply for EFY... nevermind, the application doesn't open until November 6. I'll have to add that to my calendar. Done. Moving on... Not a lot has happened over the past few months. School has started and is moving along, with or without me. My classes are relatively boring. Either I have a really cool teacher and a boring class or I have a really boring teacher and a boring class. The material just isn't reaching out and grabbing my attention. We'll see if my grades show it at the end of the semester, btu I think they'll turn out okay. I'...

Oh what a summer! How fast it seems to have slipped away, but overall, I really had a blast. Boise was a really good experience. My internship was great and I learned a lot, some of which is helping me in my new job. I also enjoyed a lot of the people I got to know while I was up there. I don’t know that Boise is the place where I’m meant to end up, but it was a good experience and I might be going back on a more permanent basis next year. We’ll see. EFY was amazing! I had so much fun and learned so many great things. My co-counselors were all amazing and I learned so much from each of them. I had some of the most amazing boys ever and learned something from each of them. Of course there were struggles and trials, but I loved it so much. In fact, I’ve decided two things. Next year, I’m going to apply to be a BC and I’ve enrolled in the Seminary Pre-Service program. I’m really considering teaching seminary as a full-time job after I graduate. Of course, it really isn’t my choice, but ...

I didn't write this letter, but I can't put my feelings into words any better. I'm a home grown American citizen, 53, registered Democrat all my life. Before the last presidential election I registered as a Republican because I no longer felt the Democratic Party represents my views or works to pursue issues important to me. Now I no longer feel the Republican Party represents my views or works to pursue issues important to me. The fact is I no longer feel any political party or representative in Washington represents my views or works to pursue the issues important to me. There must be someone. Please tell me who you are. Please stand up and tell me that you are there and that you're willing to fight for our Constitution as it was written. Please stand up now. You might ask yourself what my views and issues are that I would horribly feel so disenfranchised by both major political parties. What kind of nut job am I? Will you please tell me? Well, these are briefly my ...

I’ve been in Boise almost a month now! The time is flying by. It’s been great and I’ve loved every minute of it. (Except that minute a few nights ago where mosquitoes devoured my feet, but every other minute has been great!) I really am loving it. My internship is great and I’ve been learning a lot. I’m also not sure if programming computers is really for me. I love it and it’s a lot of fun, but it’s really hard to focus on for 8 hours a day. I’d rather be talking to people, interacting with real life beings. Maybe I am supposed to teach. Luckily, I don’t really have to deal with that right now! Besides work, life is good. I just got called to be the Elders Quorum Pianist in church. It’s not a big calling, but it’s something for me to do and I’m loving it. I’ve started making a lot of friends up here. I mostly just hang out with my roommates, but we have people over a lot to play rock band. I also made ice cream on Sunday and it was excellent. (It’s also the first time I had some lef...

I’ve finally moved in! Okay, actually I’ve been here almost a week now. I was just lazy and haven’t updated my blog. But that’s it! That’s the house I’m living in. Can’t you tell how cool it is? If you look very closely on the right side of the house towards the back, you can see my bedroom window. It’s a pretty nice place, but it also required a little bit of work. On Tuesday, I mopped and swept the kitchen floor and today I cleaned the bathroom floor and shower, both of which probably hadn’t been done in over 6 months. It needed it, but now the place looks a lot nicer. The kitchen sink still has a leak which I’m planning to try and fix on Saturday. Anyone know how to fix a leaky faucet? :) I’m sure I can figure it out. My bedroom is really nice (and I’m still working on organizing everything! :) ). It’s really different (and pleasant) having my own room! I’m not sure I’ll be able to go back to sharing a room in the fall, but we’ll see. One problem with the room was that I ha...

I have no idea what the title of this post means, but it sounded catchy and I’m not creative enough to think of anything else. I’m in Idaho! It’s weird to be living in a different state. Actually, it’s not really. I still feel like I’m in Utah. There are definitely less LDS people here, but it’s still a great place. Right now I’m living with Darrell and Michelle, my aunt and uncle, and their 4 boys. It’s been pretty fun. They have this little pug named Chuey that freaked out when I got here. I came in Sunday around midnight and it was barking at me because no one was awake when I came in. Luckily it was in Matthew’s room (one of their sons) so it couldn’t come out and bite me. It really freaked out the next morning when I suddenly appeared from the room I had been staying in. Luckily we’ve become friends since then and now he won’t leave me alone! I started my new job! I work in the Banner Bank Building. It’s a LEED building which means it’s extremely environmentally friendl...